i stayed in the hospital the night before and while mama's having her surgery. the waiting was devastating, it seems like it took a long long time. she was supposedly going in at 7am and they took her out of her room at 6am. at 10 while i was in the waiting area, nurse called for me, she's filipina, and said "we started the operation at 9, she's ok, we have'nt taken out any organ yet,she's fine but bleeding and she needs blood transfusion." i was ok to hear this but thing's were running thru my mind, will she be fine? what if she bleeds to death? what if..? then i called pong. i asked him to come, and he did even if he has to work that night. arend was left with pong's mom, she came sometime before mama got admitted for this surgery and i can't even remember the date.
after the surgery,the doc came to see me and pong right away. and said "the tumor was bad, and very big affected her pelvic, liver, part of her diaphragm, pressing on her colon, they found cancer to her small intestines but was able to take it out and she had a small hole but he managed to repair it. the cancer was so bad and it messed the uterus,blah blah blah (hard for me to register what he was saying,i already started crying) my plan of starting her on chemotheraphy a month after her surgery, has to be right away to stop these cancer cells from spreading. blah blah blah. you'll see her in but 2 hours,she's in recovery."
i was crying and crying during that waiting time. surgery was over at 2,then saw her back around 5.
today, mama still swollen and am worried since she's running fever. she's on morphine pump and resting most of the time. i watch her while she sleeps, she never sleep these much ever. she's insomiac. she's got 25 staples from above her belly button down to the pubic area. she can't eat yet.
am still crying.