what if?
today is mom's check up with her oncologist and they did bloodworks. she went in by herself, i was in the waiting room. arend's with us ofcourse. but that's not really the reason why. i did'nt wanna go in there. i'm scared. i'm scared to hear bad news. according to her, the doc said that the cancer count usually elevates after 6 months past her chemotherapy. but does'nt necessarilly means that it's bad. have my fingers cross. i don't wanna think about it. oh god help us. i'm gonna lose my sanity.