being housewife is not fun!

i usually start my day at 11 am. this is a new routine that i developed since i quit my job. instead of sleeping all day and working all night. brunch is usually fruits and pancakes, cereal and milk. then play with arend while watching kids show. lessons in between depending on his mood. exercise and playing outside is not an option with a midday temperature that's usually 3 digits, no way! (i already spent sometime at the beach and pool and too much sun is not good for me. i'm gonna make it up to him when we move.) so we snack and prepare or cook food instead. just today i realize that i have gained weight, again!!! i did not intend to weigh but i saw the scale looking so lonely and needing attention. ugh! being at home and jobless is not good. oh my!
and oh yea! we're still here in texas. taking longer than we thought. i can't wait to get out of here.














[arend's crib]

later today we're signing papers with the realtor and will place the house on the market. i feel sad. i'll be missing this house. i should'nt since i knew from the start that this will not be our permanent place to live in but so many memories with my mom and arend's first year. start of new life in a different place is always scary but i am excited to be close with family. maybe with the new job, i don't know. i loved my last job. i wish it'll be the same.

going back to my weight. it's hard to loose and even harder when you're not trying. i need a regimen. i have gained four pounds every year since we got married. we are married for a decade. f*ck! (that was for the weight not the marriage) i hate taking pics of my self. i can see all those love handles and double chin. i hate looking at my self in the mirror. i need lipo. a tummy tuck or maybe a gastric bypass.

i need to get going. get out of here and settle down and get a job. i have so many things i need to do. i wanna spend all my time with my mom and she can spend time with arend as well. seems thou that she is ok despite of the pain and sometimes nausea and vomiting. she is actually in atlantic city doing slots in one of the casinos right at this time. go mama! go mama! win some big bucks!

my sweet boys are sleeping soundly. i better join them now. sweet dreams. i'mma deal with my weight tomorrow. goodluck! to me that is.