HAPPY BIRTHDAY

today...Arend turns a year old!

today,we had a meeting after work, so after a 12 hours stretch plus an hour, then went out shopping, i was cross-eyed driving back home. i was very sleepy and tired, then i realized i have (maybe?)to pick up mom from her doc's appointment. when i got home, was so sleepy but arend was awake and wanted to play and cling to me. pong's mom took him so i can get some rest. i woke up at 12 noon and called pong to ask if they're on their way home or i have to drive to hospital to pick up mom. i was so glad to hear him, " i'll wait, she's almost done anyway" but then at 2pm, they're still not home. finally,30 min after,they're back. pong went to sleep for couple of hours then headed to his 12 hours stretch for working nights again. i appreciate all his kindness and patience to me and my mom. he is so kind, even his mom is here to look after us so i can work and she can take care of arend while i'm gone and while mom's recuperating from her illness. i don't know if i can do all these if his mom gets sick. they've been so helpful, even my aunt- she was here for almost 4 months, to help us out. i am so lucky and blessed that i am surrounded with this kind of people. so loving and caring, which i'm not. i feel that i'm such a bad person for thinking that if these things happen to them, i can't afford to be there, i gotta do my stuff,i can't i'm so busy.i got a baby and husband to take care of, reasons and 100 of reasons. anyways, heard some goodnews! according to mom's doc, she's cancer free and is not needing surgery these time. she still has the fistula but can start eating already. we're all so happy and i hope that she'll be ok for a long time and the cancer will never come back. i don't know how to thank god and everybody who's been praying for us. i think this things happening to me is a wake up call. realizing that family and love ones are important - in life, not just material things.

i am wishing that this year will be a better one.
i actually can't ask for more. just the best of health for everyone especially my love ones. a peaceful year, away from accidents man-made or god's will.
i used to wish for prosperous year, more money,more material things. but i came to realize that thing's are not important, in the end, all this material things does'nt really count.
i'm thankful for all that i have. my baby's growing big and seems healthy and cheerful. mama's doing better with her fourth course of chemotherapy. pong was with us this holiday and thankfully, has'nt been sent to iraq (yet). my job's fulfilling.
last year we got our own house although still not decorated well, it's livable, keeps us warm on cold nights, dry on rainy days.
this' what's important!
the same day today 11 years ago, a very memorable and happy day for me,but things are different now. it makes me cry to think of that moment, very painful and sad.
i'm getting old, thingking stuff like this, getting all sentimental and shit!
n'ways...happy new year!